Well, here we are at the end of another year. 2007 didn't exactly pan out as I'd hoped but I think it's ended on a positive note. I've made peace with Kayla and we're still great friends, I've got a new job that I really like, but knowing what I know now, I will probably stay out of management. I don't think it's my thing. I know I'll be looking for a place to live much closer than where I am now because gas is probably gonna reach another market high in '08.
So the hunt for a new girlfriend has started pretty slowly. I've been trying to catch up financially so I can't afford to really go out anywhere. Plus, the end of the year always bums me out so I've been trying to get over that. Once January is in full swing, I should be fine. I've never asked anyone out before so it'll be a new experience for me. Woo. I only have one real interest right now anyway but... its a little complicated.
Kayla and I have made a lasting peace. I've really come to terms with the fact that we're broken up. I think it was bound to happen sooner or later. We were both really unhappy. I've forgiven her for what happened as I've realized one of us was eventually going to do something we'd regret because neither of us had the nerve to just come out with it. Now we're great friends again and still rely on each other because, when it comes down to it, we're the only real family we have out here. We still go out and do things together because we enjoy each other's company. She's changed a lot, too. She's so much happier with herself now because she's on medication and she's got herself a job that she's really good at. I'm proud of her. I like to think that I had a hand in that.
The job is great. I really like my supervisor and he's really cool about the fact that, yes, I'm experienced in all this, but the tools are still new to me so he's still giving me some leeway. I'm also making sure I'm doing my best. Every time he's listened to my calls, he always pays me a compliment. I'm kinda hard on myself and just shrug it off and say something like, "I'd better know what I'm doing. I did it for three years." Not to mention that call centers have been my career of choice for the last ten years. I really like the job. I like the people I work with and the management doesn't make try to lie to you so openly as they did at my last job. If something's going to happen you're probably not going to like, they'll lay it on the line. They won't just lie to you and say it won't happen and then it does. Alltel's a good company to work for, though I did say the same about my last job when I first started there.
I need to move closer. My job and all my friends are in the city and I live in the sticks. I don't get to see them much because of that. Not to mention the fact that I drive an SUV and gas prices are just shy of an ass rape sans lube. At this juncture, I'd like to say thank god I don't live in L.A. Now THAT'S an ass raping. Heh.
I don't think I'm going to stay in Arizona for much longer. I don't know. I might move out east or something. I don't know. I do know that AZ isn't going to be a permanent residence. I've also toyed with the idea of moving back to L.A. I don't know. At this point it's all talk but maybe 2008 is where a plan will begin to form. I sure hope so.
I think I see 2008 as a good year. Remember, it's an election year. NO MORE IDIOTS ON AMERICA'S THRONE!
Monday, December 31, 2007
Friday, October 26, 2007
Decisions... more than one!
One of the more interesting days came this week in which two decisions I had to make were made without me really even putting much more thought than I'd realized.
By now, most of you know that I've been tormented by the AT&T and Alltel demons. Well, those demons have been slain and I've decided to take the chance at Alltel. It's going to be better for me in the long run and that's where my focus in my life is now. I don't think I'm meant for the "live in the now" mentality. I don't think looking further down the road is going to make me any less interesting. If anything, it's going to make my life more interesting because now I have a goal to shoot for and it's gonna be fun getting there. I haven't quite worked out the details, but I needed a goal. This can only end up being positive for me. This year has been teh suck and I need to start making it better.
So my second decision was one that I didn't even see coming. As we speak, Kayla is spending the weekend with her new boyfriend and I woke up the other day having realized that I'm perfectly fine with it. Now what I feel is mostly jealousy in that she found someone and I'm still single. The real trip was that I realized I'm ready for it. I'm not just looking to date because I'm still recovering from the breakup. I'm looking for something serious again. I've often considered the break up as being something that needed to happen, which is why I wasn't as distraught when it happened. I had initially believed it to be the meds, but in the end, I was just okay with it. I mean, it still hurt. It hurt like a bitch. But I think we're both better off this way. We're still trying to stay friends but I put up the disclaimer, "Leave some details out" for her. She understands, thankfully. lol
So now I have to look into what being ready for a relationship means. I've never really done the dating scene since I met Kayla when I was a basement dweller and met her online. But my friend is trying to set me up with her roommate who I used to work with. Very pretty girl and quite the opposite of Kayla. So, if nothing else, I'm a little curious to see if we'd hit it off. I dunno. I need a haircut. That much I do know.
I can't end a post on my blog without acknowledging the loss of my little Tor last weekend. It devastated me, but I'm coming to terms with it. I was expecting it to happen as most rodentia don't handle moves well and since she was the smallest of my three girls, I figured it'd be hardest on her. I'll miss her. She was our little baby so Kayla was hurt pretty hard as well. But I have plenty of memories and pictures of my little girl so I'll never forget her.
By now, most of you know that I've been tormented by the AT&T and Alltel demons. Well, those demons have been slain and I've decided to take the chance at Alltel. It's going to be better for me in the long run and that's where my focus in my life is now. I don't think I'm meant for the "live in the now" mentality. I don't think looking further down the road is going to make me any less interesting. If anything, it's going to make my life more interesting because now I have a goal to shoot for and it's gonna be fun getting there. I haven't quite worked out the details, but I needed a goal. This can only end up being positive for me. This year has been teh suck and I need to start making it better.
So my second decision was one that I didn't even see coming. As we speak, Kayla is spending the weekend with her new boyfriend and I woke up the other day having realized that I'm perfectly fine with it. Now what I feel is mostly jealousy in that she found someone and I'm still single. The real trip was that I realized I'm ready for it. I'm not just looking to date because I'm still recovering from the breakup. I'm looking for something serious again. I've often considered the break up as being something that needed to happen, which is why I wasn't as distraught when it happened. I had initially believed it to be the meds, but in the end, I was just okay with it. I mean, it still hurt. It hurt like a bitch. But I think we're both better off this way. We're still trying to stay friends but I put up the disclaimer, "Leave some details out" for her. She understands, thankfully. lol
So now I have to look into what being ready for a relationship means. I've never really done the dating scene since I met Kayla when I was a basement dweller and met her online. But my friend is trying to set me up with her roommate who I used to work with. Very pretty girl and quite the opposite of Kayla. So, if nothing else, I'm a little curious to see if we'd hit it off. I dunno. I need a haircut. That much I do know.
I can't end a post on my blog without acknowledging the loss of my little Tor last weekend. It devastated me, but I'm coming to terms with it. I was expecting it to happen as most rodentia don't handle moves well and since she was the smallest of my three girls, I figured it'd be hardest on her. I'll miss her. She was our little baby so Kayla was hurt pretty hard as well. But I have plenty of memories and pictures of my little girl so I'll never forget her.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
North, South, East or West? Heh... Might be up or down for all I know.
I think I'm at a crossroads in my life, though I may be making a mountain out of a molehill.
So I've been perplexed by a decision I have to make within the next month. I've been offered a job working for Alltel Wireless. I'll make less than what I'm making now at AT&T but the job is stable, I'll be getting benefits, and there is advancement. AT&T is a contract gig. No bennies, no advancement (unless they hire us full time which, while likely, probably won't be for a sometime yet), but great pay and easy work.
I was going to sit down and make a pros/cons list because this decision has me split right down the middle. I mean, typically, I'll lean one way or the other. But this one has me completely at a loss. While contemplating my decision, I was checking out WWdN:iX and Wil's post about about the journey, not the destination made me realize that I'm no longer a kid, doing what's easiest or what makes me the most money isn't what drives me anymore. The fact that I'm contemplating leaving one job for another based on the ability to make a career out of it really surprised me.
True, I haven't made my decision. I could very well choose to go with the money as it could really help me right now. But do I really need it? I don't think so. The pay cut I'm taking is only $1+ an hour which isn't all that bad. And the drive would be considerably shorter. So that's a benefit in its own right.
But then the money would help get me out of debt a lot faster and the job really is easy. But it's such a rinky-dink set up. They haven't gotten anything truly stable yet as it's a new product. So we have to deal with seriously pissed off customers, field technicians who electrocute themselves because, gods love 'em, they were only born with half a brain, and lower level techs who are too afraid to try anything because they don't want to screw up and have the customers yell at them.
The decision is harder than I had ever realized. I would start with Alltel November 5th so I have until then to make a decision. I mean, I don't even know what it's going to be like at Alltel. I can only hope it'll be like Verizon. While VZW had its drawbacks, it was a stable company with a lot of room to grow. I made it to supervisor there. I'm just not sure. Maybe it'll be worse. I wish I had a crystal ball. Not to see how things would come out, but to get lottery numbers so I could just throw this whole decision out the window and live in a giant mansion on a lake somewhere in Ireland. Eh, a man can dream.
And now, Email sig of the day, courtesy of WWdN: "Always be yourself. Unless you suck."
So I've been perplexed by a decision I have to make within the next month. I've been offered a job working for Alltel Wireless. I'll make less than what I'm making now at AT&T but the job is stable, I'll be getting benefits, and there is advancement. AT&T is a contract gig. No bennies, no advancement (unless they hire us full time which, while likely, probably won't be for a sometime yet), but great pay and easy work.
I was going to sit down and make a pros/cons list because this decision has me split right down the middle. I mean, typically, I'll lean one way or the other. But this one has me completely at a loss. While contemplating my decision, I was checking out WWdN:iX and Wil's post about about the journey, not the destination made me realize that I'm no longer a kid, doing what's easiest or what makes me the most money isn't what drives me anymore. The fact that I'm contemplating leaving one job for another based on the ability to make a career out of it really surprised me.
True, I haven't made my decision. I could very well choose to go with the money as it could really help me right now. But do I really need it? I don't think so. The pay cut I'm taking is only $1+ an hour which isn't all that bad. And the drive would be considerably shorter. So that's a benefit in its own right.
But then the money would help get me out of debt a lot faster and the job really is easy. But it's such a rinky-dink set up. They haven't gotten anything truly stable yet as it's a new product. So we have to deal with seriously pissed off customers, field technicians who electrocute themselves because, gods love 'em, they were only born with half a brain, and lower level techs who are too afraid to try anything because they don't want to screw up and have the customers yell at them.
The decision is harder than I had ever realized. I would start with Alltel November 5th so I have until then to make a decision. I mean, I don't even know what it's going to be like at Alltel. I can only hope it'll be like Verizon. While VZW had its drawbacks, it was a stable company with a lot of room to grow. I made it to supervisor there. I'm just not sure. Maybe it'll be worse. I wish I had a crystal ball. Not to see how things would come out, but to get lottery numbers so I could just throw this whole decision out the window and live in a giant mansion on a lake somewhere in Ireland. Eh, a man can dream.
And now, Email sig of the day, courtesy of WWdN: "Always be yourself. Unless you suck."
Tuesday, October 2, 2007
At work...
Well, I'm almost completely moved out of my apartment. Just some minor clean up work left before I sever such a tie. That was my first apartment in AZ so it's a kind of an odd and sad feeling. Lots of memories in that apartment. Lots to look back on.
On the plus, I'm getting situated at my house though the lack of any real TV sucks ass. The girls are moved in so my roommate's cat has been eyeballing them. I'm not worried, though. If she somehow manages to actually turn the knob and open the door, the girls will give her what fer.
I have to really thank Dawnee for giving me the opportunity to live in a house for the first time in 17 years. It's an odd feeling knowing that there isn't someone on the other side of the wall. Not to mention that I really needed a new living situation as my finances were really beating me to hell.
I've been stressing about my own life lately. Ever since I got fired from VZW, things have been unstable and I hate instability. I feel like I've lost any semblance of control. Job hopping from GoDaddy to AT&T and now Alltel in November. I feel like a loser. I don't job hop. I'm supposed to be the stable, hard-working one. It's aggravating.
I know things will get better. It just seems kind of overwhelming right now.
On the plus, I'm getting situated at my house though the lack of any real TV sucks ass. The girls are moved in so my roommate's cat has been eyeballing them. I'm not worried, though. If she somehow manages to actually turn the knob and open the door, the girls will give her what fer.
I have to really thank Dawnee for giving me the opportunity to live in a house for the first time in 17 years. It's an odd feeling knowing that there isn't someone on the other side of the wall. Not to mention that I really needed a new living situation as my finances were really beating me to hell.
I've been stressing about my own life lately. Ever since I got fired from VZW, things have been unstable and I hate instability. I feel like I've lost any semblance of control. Job hopping from GoDaddy to AT&T and now Alltel in November. I feel like a loser. I don't job hop. I'm supposed to be the stable, hard-working one. It's aggravating.
I know things will get better. It just seems kind of overwhelming right now.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Quote of the Day
In a conversation I had with my buddy Chris where he was implying that my moving out to Maricopa was akin to living out in the desert itself by saying I'm going to be "squatting over a piece of dessert [sic]."
"OH! You dope. DESERT only has one "S". Here I am imagining myself squatting over a piece of pie."
"OH! You dope. DESERT only has one "S". Here I am imagining myself squatting over a piece of pie."
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
My birthday
I'll just recap briefly what today consisted of.
Woke up this morning and got ready for my interview at Alltel. They offered me the position at a buck and a half less than what I'm making now. But I'll actually have benefits and can accrue vacation time and such. I think it's a far better deal. After the interview, I had to go pee in a cup. Wee.
Rather than go to work, I went to go get some chinese food and on the way home, picked up a copy of Halo 3. Figured I earned it and since it launched on my birthday, it was fate. I came home, ate my food, dressed down and went into work for the second half of the day.
After work, I came home and just hung out for a while, fielding calls and text messages from people wanting to wish me a happy birthday. I eventually ordered a pizza and soda and came home. Hung out a little more, watching some more of season 6 of Scrubs. After that was over, I went into the living room and played Halo 3 on the HDTV. Fucking AWESOME!!!! Damn. I didn't realize I had played for three hours. I came back in here at about 11pm and figured my hiatus had lasted long enough.
Thanks to those of you who sent me the birthday greetings. I really appreciate it. My birthday wasn't so bad after all. I guess I just wanted to prepare myself for the worst. I'm pretty content with today.
Only problem: with Halo 3 sitting in my living room... I'm never going to get any packing done.
Woke up this morning and got ready for my interview at Alltel. They offered me the position at a buck and a half less than what I'm making now. But I'll actually have benefits and can accrue vacation time and such. I think it's a far better deal. After the interview, I had to go pee in a cup. Wee.
Rather than go to work, I went to go get some chinese food and on the way home, picked up a copy of Halo 3. Figured I earned it and since it launched on my birthday, it was fate. I came home, ate my food, dressed down and went into work for the second half of the day.
After work, I came home and just hung out for a while, fielding calls and text messages from people wanting to wish me a happy birthday. I eventually ordered a pizza and soda and came home. Hung out a little more, watching some more of season 6 of Scrubs. After that was over, I went into the living room and played Halo 3 on the HDTV. Fucking AWESOME!!!! Damn. I didn't realize I had played for three hours. I came back in here at about 11pm and figured my hiatus had lasted long enough.
Thanks to those of you who sent me the birthday greetings. I really appreciate it. My birthday wasn't so bad after all. I guess I just wanted to prepare myself for the worst. I'm pretty content with today.
Only problem: with Halo 3 sitting in my living room... I'm never going to get any packing done.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Yeah... I'm gonna be incommunicado tomorrow...
Tomorrow is going to be rather depressing for me so I've decided to go dark for the day. No chat programs or MySpace or LJ or anything of the sort. In fact, I think I'm just going to turn my computer off at the stroke of midnight.
So thank you in advance to all of you who send me your well wishes. Don't think they go unappreciated. This is just one birthday that I'd really rather forget. You guys have a great Tuesday and stay out of trouble. Or if you do get into trouble, post about it somewhere so I have something to read come Wednesday.
\m/,
So thank you in advance to all of you who send me your well wishes. Don't think they go unappreciated. This is just one birthday that I'd really rather forget. You guys have a great Tuesday and stay out of trouble. Or if you do get into trouble, post about it somewhere so I have something to read come Wednesday.
\m/,
Sunday, September 9, 2007
I have a rat crawling on my shoulders...
I love my girls. They're batshit.
I start my new job tomorrow. Everyone I know is wondering how I could work for the Evil Empire again. I tell them what I've been telling myself: It's not the old AT&T. The company I'll be working for used to be known as SBC which was one of the best companies to work for in the west. They just changed their name to AT&T.
I'm excited, though. It'll be good to be a grunt doing tech support again. I don't think I want to be management anymore. I'd like to get back into the wireless industry. Maybe be a cell tech. I dunno. I've come to this odd realization that I've lost sight of my goal. Once I became a supervisor, I sort of lost my drive because that's what I was shooting for and I made it. So... now what? I have to rethink things now. Where do I want to go?
I'll be leaving Arizona fairly soon. I don't know when. But I've think I've done all I can here. Now the question is: where to? There's any number of places I can go where I'll have friends. We'll see where things lead.
I start my new job tomorrow. Everyone I know is wondering how I could work for the Evil Empire again. I tell them what I've been telling myself: It's not the old AT&T. The company I'll be working for used to be known as SBC which was one of the best companies to work for in the west. They just changed their name to AT&T.
I'm excited, though. It'll be good to be a grunt doing tech support again. I don't think I want to be management anymore. I'd like to get back into the wireless industry. Maybe be a cell tech. I dunno. I've come to this odd realization that I've lost sight of my goal. Once I became a supervisor, I sort of lost my drive because that's what I was shooting for and I made it. So... now what? I have to rethink things now. Where do I want to go?
I'll be leaving Arizona fairly soon. I don't know when. But I've think I've done all I can here. Now the question is: where to? There's any number of places I can go where I'll have friends. We'll see where things lead.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
This is new...
Yeah, I decided to move my blog over to a site a little more professional than LJ. The whole SixApart thing was just getting too stupid so I decided to come over to Blogspot. I thought about going over to Typepad but that's owned by 6A, too, so screw that idea.
Well, since this is something that a lot more people may view, let me give you a little info about me and why I chose "MajorXero".
MajorXero was my gamer name. I used to play first-person shooters like Medal of Honor so I wanted something with a military ring to it. I was also really bad at these games so I went with "Zero". Rather than be totally lame (and cuz Xs are cool), I changed the Z to an X and thus, MajorXero was born.
Woo.
A little about me:
I'm 26, turning 27 on Sept 25. Born and raised in Los Angeles. I moved out of my mom's when I was 24 and moved to Anaheim. Came out to Phoenix when I was 25 with my then-girlfriend. Figured I'd try to grow more as a person by leaving the nest. Worked at a major wireless company until July of this year. I'll be moving in with a friend out in Maricopa, AZ at the end of this month. I'll be able to sever ties completely with my ex now. I'm not in love with her anymore, but I think I need a clean break with her. I've been living in our apartment since she cheated on me in May of this year. Time for me to move on by myself. Start exploring options on my own and be my own man.
I'm a big boy now.
Well, since this is something that a lot more people may view, let me give you a little info about me and why I chose "MajorXero".
MajorXero was my gamer name. I used to play first-person shooters like Medal of Honor so I wanted something with a military ring to it. I was also really bad at these games so I went with "Zero". Rather than be totally lame (and cuz Xs are cool), I changed the Z to an X and thus, MajorXero was born.
Woo.
A little about me:
I'm 26, turning 27 on Sept 25. Born and raised in Los Angeles. I moved out of my mom's when I was 24 and moved to Anaheim. Came out to Phoenix when I was 25 with my then-girlfriend. Figured I'd try to grow more as a person by leaving the nest. Worked at a major wireless company until July of this year. I'll be moving in with a friend out in Maricopa, AZ at the end of this month. I'll be able to sever ties completely with my ex now. I'm not in love with her anymore, but I think I need a clean break with her. I've been living in our apartment since she cheated on me in May of this year. Time for me to move on by myself. Start exploring options on my own and be my own man.
I'm a big boy now.
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